It doesn’t matter there are people who love you or that the sun is shining. It hits you all of the sudden–nothing is ever going to be OK, ever. So, you dare yourself. Is this it?
You start thinking that you’ve known all along this was coming, but you don’t know if today’s the day. If you think too much… it probably isn’t.
But you pick up your razor, press it to your skin, hold your pill bottles and you think–I could just do it.
Most of the time you get scared and the moments gone. You go back to normal, but you keep it there in your mind. Even if you never do it, it gives you a comfort to know it’s for your to choose.